-sElFiSh-

these past few days, i am so selfish.

and i feel really guilty. really.

why am i being so selfish? hindi naman ako talaga ganito! lately, i want to have things and do things my way. i dunno... by the end of the day, i feel bad about myself.

in all honesty, the major reason why i am being like this is that i want to have a boyfriend! although i know that it isn't my time yet, still i'm asking (actually it's not asking, but pushing) God to give him to me. i know God has His reasons as to why things don't happen the way i want them to... bad girl talaga ano?!
another thing, i feel really bad when people don't notice the effort(s) that i put into a task given to me. i am not asking for a trophy, that's absurd. i just want people to appreciate me, as simple as that. but why can't they do that? ang nakakasama pa ng loob, OTHER people get the credit.

don't get me wrong, i'm not heading a major pity-party here. besides... i know that THIS behavior is unacceptable... and i feel bad about being bad. i am aware that God acknowledges my efforts in every task that is given to me, i also know that He has set the right time, the right place, and the right date and the perfect mate for me. wala lang, just being subborn and hard-headed i guess. (narrow-minded pa nga pala!)

; )

whachutink?!