where are the men in life?

when my father died 8 years ago, i never thought that that was the last time i would ever have a man that i could trust without any fear, without any doubt... i wonder, after my father died, where did the would-be men in life go?

don't get me wrong, reader... i am not a man-hater 'coz my father gave a quite impressive idea about men. it's just that, i got depressed when i finally realized that some (well, actually most of the men) men in my life have been extremely unmanly, ungodly...

recently, some (supposedly) guy friends invited me for dinner (it sounds like a posh invite,,, but actually it's not... it's just tapsi around the corner), said they would treat me. but things went wayward when me and my nephew got there. we were late... really late. BUT it's because i had to clean the church, i had to run errands for my aunt, had to prepare my 'son' for the d*mn dinner! but what did i get? NOTHING but panlalait, and panghahamak! i got really mad, i even paid that dinner! worst, hindi man lang nag-thank you! rude, right?

i had a boyfriend... thought he was nice, and that he would take care of me... that he would be my knight in shining armour... but he's not. end of the so-called 'lovestory'

i wonder where have all the 'good' men in my life have gone? i've been constantly praying for someone... ahhhh! nakaka-disappoint lang talaga! not God but MEN! haaayyyy...

(napakasama ba ng tingn ko na sa mga boys? well in fact my fvery first netry here is about a guy friend and how 'fortunate' i am for having a friend like him..)