hanging

- my younger sister no longer wants to attend class... after all that both of us have been through... wala na...sumuko na siya... the sad part about this is that she'd start all over again... and in a way, nanghihinayang talaga ako sa mga nasayang na panahon niya... dapat college graduate siya ngayon baka may maayos na trabaho.... i mean,,, para naman sa future niya ang mga ginagawa namin. hindi ko maintindihan ang takbo ng isip ng kapatid kong iyon! in the first place, hindi ko naman siya pinilit na mag-aral... siya ang nagdesisyon na mag-aaral. then, all of a sudden, she will leave me hanging?

- i got 'dumped' the second time. not so really 'dumped' in a sense, you know... basta... do i deserve to be treated like this? or wala lang talaga akong bagay that would make a guy truly love me? ah... pangit lang talaga siguro ako.... (pathetic!)


- i feel sooo alone...because i really do not know what's going on with my life... it's as if i am a floating entity... nameless, faceless.

- yesterday, i got upset to some of my 'fellow brothers and a sister' (not my churchmates!) . we had a wonderful team meeting yesterday (or so i thought). we were really "open" (not necessarily vulgar, i think)... and it was a kick! however, as i coming out of the mall, i overheard a group of people talking about what had happened during the meeting. i got so disappointed with what i heard from them! they called the meeting obscene, but ironically, one of them was talking about how big one of our officemates boobs are! who's obscene now?