of shits and bitches

i feel so angry today... alone and miserable.

i hate her. i hate her with all my heart and mind. she is SUCH A BITCH! a freakin g*ddamn whore!

i'd like to punch her in the nose... puke all over her face... put poison on her food...

no wonder, she is the mother of all sins! no wonder....

sometimes, i wonder, and eventually find myself asking God, "why did You place me in such a hideous position? of all families, of all life's cruel situations, why here? why her?"

God, i know You are real... i know You care... but in times of this turmoil... where are You? carry me Lord.