r a n d o m r a n t s

i have a fear.
magpa-pioneer kami ng isang ministry sa church -- isang ministry na kung ilang taon na rin natutulog.. natatakot ako na baka hindi ko magawa ang pinakamainam ko para sa Kaniya. iniisip ko, bakit nga ba kami "nangahas" na simulan ulit ito? kasi, minsang tanungin ko ang isa kong kasama, ang sabi niya, "para ma-legalize yung mga lakad natin... na hindi magmukhang barkadahan lang.."

Lord, ayokong maging sangkalan namin ang Iyong gawain para sa pansariling interes. kung ganito man ang nag-udyok sa amin para simulan ang gawain na ito, ituwid mo ang aming mga isipan at layunin -- na ang gawain mo ay hindi 'escape goat', na hindi lokohan ang pagsisimula ng isang ministeryo.

-oOo-

"PK/MK"

last October, i had the opportunity to be a part of a 4-day conference (it's actually 3 days) and was blessed with so many gifted speakers, organized activities, and blessed attendees.

but somethings been bothering me.

why is it that everytime i attend events such as this, there will always be a portion where PKs/MKs will be treated as though they are more special than us - those not born of a pastoral decent?

wala lang

-oOo-

.:gratitude:.

God is truly amazing..
I am so indebted of what God has done (and will be doing) for me.
He gave me another chance to change, to be renewed and to have a breath of fresh air.

Hindi ko talaga maintindihan kung bakit minahal Niya ako nang ganito... kung bakit pinili Niya ako.

Lord, i am thankful... for everything.
I want to be passionate for You.
Help me, I need You po.

By God's grace I was able to ask for a week's PTO (personal Time Off) sa office (na take not: hindi usually gina-grant). That alone was a miracle. I work in a financial account and being on leave for a long period was a no-no. But my God has something in store for me....

We went to Baguio, and God showed me things, gave me new insights and helped me back on my feet again. It was really hard at first -- my heart has been hardened by life's so many pressures and hurts from the past.
I've made new friends, catched up with old friends. It's a wonder seeing them again...

Here are some thoughts:

I've learned that the love of God is more than head-knowledge, it's a refreshing and a wonderful experience. It's more than knowing, it is understanding and the best part is "experiencing".
I wish i could say the right words here... that I could exactly define what the love of the Lord is... but words are utterly useless... to define His divine love is overwhelming. He IS overwhelming!

Stress can be worked out.

Being God's child gives you a greater responsibility sa workplace. You work, not because of money but because strategically God placed you there as a ministry. You work to give God the glory. So, in that case, work honestly, coupled with integrity.

marami pa,,, but i have to go. i just came home from work. need to catch some sleep....